Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Gotta Love The Fans....

While doing some work down here in Louisiana I came across some history of the Lake Charles area. The father of Lake Charles is John Jacob Ryan, known just as Jacob Ryan. The main thoroughfare through Lake Charles, is named Ryan Street, after him. He opened a sawmill on the lake and claimed the land around it. He eventually sold the land by 100ft rope lengths (now the city's downtown). John Jacob Ryan died on Dec 17, 1899.
It seemed appropriate that I do something in honor of both Jacobs. I couldn't come up with anything too spectacular but since I was surrounded by a lot of beaches and water I managed to spell out Jacob Ryan using sea shells. I was trying to beat a storm coming in so the letters are a little off. The second picture is a view across the lake as you look over the name. I wrote this further inland on the beach away from the waves so I hope it stays for awhile.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

More Stories of Families Touched by Trisomy 18

I have been kind of out of the world of blogs lately sticking with my sweet friends that have experienced the loss of their child or children. It wasn't until I came in contact with Little Jonathan's mother that I found another family going through the journey of Trisomy 18. This evening I found 3 other stories on blogger.

Julie and her husband Noah welcomed their baby girl it into this world last week, August 6th. Magdalena Grace is such a fighter and her and her family have hopes of welcoming her into her earthly home soon. I made a little bit of personal contact with Julie tonight and hope to continue to minister to her and her family with Jacob's life. Her blog is:

Christian is a baby boy who's mother Leah will be induced next Friday the 22nd. Their blog is:

Karen is the mother who awaits the arrival of her sweet baby boy on the 27th of August. Their blog is:

I have this ridiculously overwhelming desire to travel to hug these mamas. There are very few people who really "get it" and prior to meeting with, crying with and hugging 8 other mothers who have lost their babies, I would have never known that there are others out there who get it. I am so motivated to minister how ever I can with Jacob's story. He has opened my eyes to another world that I am just so in love with and I just want to make the most of all I have learned. Please pray for these families. Please pray for me and I find the words and actions to support them. Thank you for your faithful love and prayers.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Some losses are fun!

So many losses are tough but it is refreshing to know that not all are this way....Today, Joshua lost his first tooth! We have been waiting for this day for a few weeks now since his adult tooth broke through behind it.....finally the baby tooth came out! He was so excited and when I told him I wanted to take his picture he asked that I post it on the blog for you all to read.....he loves the fans just as much as Jacob did! :)

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

My Big Sister is Married!

On 08/08/08 my big sister Juli became a Misses! The boys were the ring bearers so of course we took tons of photos....here are some:

Monday, August 11, 2008

Prayer for "Little Jonathan's" Family

On July 29th, I requested prayer for another family effected by Trisomy 18, "Little Jonathan's" family. Please continue to pray for them specifically because Little Jonathan went home to the Lord this morning. Please be in prayer for his family as they begin this journey of grief. Thank you.

Every Moment Counts

"Trust in the Lord with all of your heart; lean not on your own understanding. In all of your ways, acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight." Proverbs 3:5,6

I sit and watch the Olympic games and my favorite sport is swimming. I understand the sport because I was a sprinter for 6 years....of course I didn't achieve the level of skill the Olympians have but I did race to achieve some state recognition. What I learned as a racer, combined with these Olympic games, combined with my gift of Jacob results in a clear point.....every moment counts....every fraction of a moment counts. When I was swimming a relay race in a state competition, the relay I was in tied our school record.....one kick just a bit harder, one stroke a little bit faster, just a fraction of a second faster and we would have broken it.....but we tied it right down to the hundredth of a second. The value of a fraction of a second is magnified with these Olympic swimmers.....all 16 competitors can be within a second but that second is divided into gold, silver and bronze winners....all within the same moment but divided by those fractions of a second. Jacob has shown me the value of a second....one second he's doing great, the next he's not breathing.....one second he's resting in my husband's arms, the next he's embraced by the One True God. The moments we spend here count....every fraction of them. What we do with them matters.

I try so hard to be a good testimony to Christ with my life and all I do....more so since Jacob's passing, I have been able to reach and touch so many people's lives. But why? I have come to realize how prideful I am. I fall into this lie that the only way to be used is to live perfectly (I have NEVER lived perfectly!) When I fall into sin, I feel that all I have done is lost. I had a long weekend of sorting through some things that I have done....sins that I have committed against my Lord....falling hard. I live as a forgiven sinner....my sins were paid for on that cross that Christ died upon...so I do not relive what I have done but I do try to learn from it and value the lessons that hide within my bad choices. When I am in sin, I am less of what God wants me to be....I am not a testimony to His love, I am not a testimony of what fulfillment a life with Christ brings, I fail to be a representative of a household that follows Christ and I fail to show the beauty of a mother shepherding her children in their walk with the Lord. I am so prideful. I have made things all about me. My perspective is so wrong.....when I fall, I think about what others will think of me and how my testimony will be effected instead of weeping for the fact that my Jesus hung and died on a cross for that sin....how dare I care what others think before I think of all the Christ has done for me. I realize that anytime someones life has been touched because of what the Lord has done though me, a sinner saved by grace, it is ONLY by His grace that I have been used in other people's lives. So why do I try to live right, make the right decisions and choices? Because I want to worship Jesus. Why do I fail miserably? Because I am human. Because I am selfish. Because if I didn't fail, others would follow me instead of Christ. So in the midst of sin, I see the cross....I embrace the cross....and I am thankful for the cross.....and I am motivated by the cross....not to earn anything, because my sin has been paid for, but to show Him that even though I have failed Him, I am thankful for all He has done for me and it is only because of Him that there is anything good that has come from my life. So what value is there to this lesson of falling into sin? Forgiveness. Thank you Jesus for using me. Thank you Father for allowing me to see that when I fall, your embrace is so much sweeter because of my recognition of my need for you. Thank you for your forgiveness even when I fail you miserably.

So what does this have to do with "every moment counts." EVERY moment counts....good or bad. God will use my life to impact others and I will embrace the moments and do my best to live for Him. But I will fail. And in the midst of my failures, I will be reminded of God's forgiveness and make every moment count and use these failures to learn more about who I am IN CHRIST. Every moment happens and what happens in that moment matters. He will make it count even when I mess it up. He will use me how He sees fit and if I make a tiny bit of difference in someone else's life, it is a miracle because I am a sinner. All that is good comes from Him.

"Trust in the Lord with all of your heart; lean not on your own understanding. In all of your ways, acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight." Proverbs 3:5,6

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Newest Fanmail!

"Hello Fahmer family!
I hope you are all as well as you can be in this lovely summer. I read Jacob's story from almost the beginning, and I have to tell you, he touched my heart in such an amazing way, and I deeply thank you for sharing his story with all of us on the internet. I was meaning to write to you ages ago, but with one thing and another I never got round to it, I'm sorry about that.
Anyway, the reason I email you now is, well, it's a story really. I was at the beach today with my family, and my cousins and I were writing things in the sand. And I looked up, and I saw a cloud in the sky in the shape of a J. Instantly, I thought of Jacob, and decided to write his name in the sand. So I did, and then I remembered that I had been meaning to email you and thank you for sharing him, and his story with everyone, and decided to take a picture of his name in the sand, and send it you when I got home. Long story short, I did. So the picture attached is Jacob's name in the sand, at Southport beach in Merseyside, England.
THANK YOU for sharing Jacob's amazing story, and God bless you all! Kathryn"