Well, I just wanted to make it blogger official (I made it facebook official already) BUT....
Baby BOY Fahmer #5 is due to arrive August 1st, 2011!
It is one of those balancing acts. God has given us an appreciation for every breath we take and taught us so very much. He allowed me to glimpse at this precious baby boys hand as it waved across a screen as if to say hello. He allowed my heart to hope for the day I am able to hold that hand in mine and hope for may more days with him. As mamas, we project the days when our children will be older, going off to college, dancing at their weddings....but the truth is, we are not promised more than what we have this very moment. Not to ignite fear or panic but appreciation for what it is we have at this very moment and not to look at it for anything less than the miracle it is. So carrying this precious 5th borrowed baby boy of mine, my second since the reality of time and eternity and the sorrow of loss, I am thanking the Lord for my moments to mother this child right now, hoping for more but not taking these little dances in my belly for granted. Again, Jacob Ryan is an amazing big brother and has gifted this baby with more love than I could have given before his life and death.
Please pray for this sweet baby. Pray for his continued growth and coming birth. Pray for his big brothers as they too balance the reality of loss with the hope of the baby's future. Pray for Jason and I as God works in our lives to prepare us to parent our 5th sweet boy outside the womb.
Oh, there is so much more I want to share but I have so many blue eyes to stare into right now.....gotta go stare.
I will be back.
Love you all!